This is someone I should study. I must examine his categorical rejection of “imitation,” particularly of European models — an articulation of 1840s US literary nationalism. His program for self-reliance is apparently obedience to higher law. “Plinlimmon’s snake oil,” someone said in reference to Emerson. Tell me about that. Plinlimmon is a character in Melville’s … More Ralph Waldo Emerson
This, concisely, was the message of Reeducation: you must be a child. But that is not true. Axé.
It is the same meditation: how one learned to limit oneself. How one was trained from the beginning to stand aside in life, to be in service. The reason I thought it important to study certain things was that I was so passionate about them that if I actually entered their field I would be … More Sagittarius, the Archer
He has it figured out. Axé.
On standing up for oneself, I did it seriously a few days ago and it has made a difference, or meant a shift. Key words from meditation are disturbing and set adrift. There are many perceptions to record and many things to say, but my next long meditation will be on Maringouin, our strange lives … More Quelque chose a changé
It is time to actually read Anti-Oedipus and the discussions of it from those days, in places like this. Here is my Vallejo problem: my issue is psychic invasion, and I have a visceral reaction to the idea of subject shattering. “Then that is a non-liberatory, but binding, shattering,” someone said. What is fractured subjectivity … More Sur Deleuze, et sur le sujet
So it is the splitting I experience. Last week’s exercise on shame (and the shame I feel comes from this) made it perfectly clear that the problem is splitting. I always have done it to some minor extent. Graduate school cured me of most of it, and Reeducation brought it back in a much more … More Splitting
…decide what this paper, which feels alien, has to do with my book, which does not. Axé.
It is to talk about work, my history of work. Relation to self in work, relation to family in work. Education, Reeducation, work, identity, right to exist. This is a broader topic than I am covering in this post. This post is about research. There is a way in which my entire academic problem is … More The next step
…and the time for that, and the validity of the research identity, and the authority to do research, are what Reeducation took. I am not sure I agree with everything in this post, or identify, but it is of interest and I do not think Vallejo had the idyllic childhood they say he had. Axé.
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