As we know, advice on writing misses the point for me. I have research problems, not distaste for writing or poor work habits, and advice going to these things offends me because I want different advice, that is withheld.
I wake up in the morning thinking of the movement and how to organize. I think of this as “procrastination” but perhaps I should just go ahead and put the movement activity first. My father put the family first, and his academic job was for that. My academic job is first, but it is not a job, it is a way of proving I am a person with a right to exist.
This is a large reason why I resist academic work: once I figured out I could be a successful academic I lost interest, having now accorded myself the right to exist. That is to say I was interested differently, and wanted another relationship to it, and did not seem to know how to get that, and also seemed to be denied it.
Axé.
