That feeling of not being interested
I tend to think it’s because I’m actually not interested, but it’s a trauma reaction. Axé.
I tend to think it’s because I’m actually not interested, but it’s a trauma reaction. Axé.
This is important and revealing, as it shows why I am and have been so traumatized by “cajunismo.” I waver between understanding that this happened, and it’s common, and I withstood it better than many, and thinking I should have found a way to reject it, see what was happening, and start batting on my … More The academic power and control wheel
A reminder. A Capricorn life is work and doing heavy lifting for others, without gratitude. But love and esthetics are important and must be honored. With Gemini rising, it is important to choose the discomfort of concentration. Do not let other people dissipate your life, and do not allow them to interrupt work. Gemini rising … More That astrological reading
…but is this too violent? Abuse and misogyny are endemic in Cajun culture. If you do not know this, it is because you are sheltered. That is why the idealization of this culture in the tourist literature—that many now take for academic history–is intolerable to me. Do not sing me one more damned song. * … More I want to say it on Facebook…
“First, workers are alienated from the product of their labour. What they create does not belong to them, but to the owners of capital. The products of work confront workers as something external and powerful, appearing in the form of commodities, profits, and wealth controlled by others. The more workers produce, the poorer they become … More Academic efficiency under capitalism
Politically, one of the things to which I most object to in the white grievance narrative that is cajunismo — and that interestingly, is deployed the most by older men and certain emotionally deprived teen-boys (and I will note that it is a masculinist narrative, you don’t hear women singing it) — is its appropriation … More Enemistad
“What is negative in ethics refers therefore less to a normative, moral injunction than to the effect of – moral and cognitive – paralysis and blockage that often comes as a result of a hurt, a shock, an act of violence, despair and disenchantment or just by intense tedium. Negative passions destroy the self’s capacity to act as they … More On Deleuze/Guattari
I have been saying things like this: Aspects of the adoration of Cajuns to which I object include the ubiquity of the fleur-de-lys and the nostalgia for empire, along with the desire to parlay that into becoming kings in a new, corporate empire. If you want credit for being a poor peasant and you’ve decided … More The one defeated
Long ago, in another coincé job, two friends had things to say. One: that every academic must have a secret life, some hobby nobody else from campus participates in, a fancy car nobody from campus rides in. Two: that I was stressed out from campus because I wasn’t hiding enough. At the time, I did … More Managing
Now we are getting somewhere. It was in many ways literally true that I had to let that department chair abuse me, which he did in the name of the Cajuns, to survive. And I needed to survive. I gave up a great deal for it, and the whole experience reproduced earlier trauma, and I … More Still more on the latest episode of disgust