I would love to say to tourists:
Aspects of the Cajun adoration to which I object include the fleur-de-lys and the nostalgia for empire, along with the desire to parlay that into becoming kings in a new, corporate empire. If you want credit for being a poor peasant and you’ve decided to become a king’s man, you don’t have my solidarity, even if I, a member of the literate classes for centuries, am more privileged than you (yes, some of my ancestors literally hosted yours on their way to Louisiana, it’s documented). No amount of gumbo, beer, or neo-folk music can compensate for what has been gleefully done to the environment here in the last hundred years. You are far from the only people who have suffered language oppression, and you gave yours up very easily. The religion in which you have wrapped yourselves has produced some of the worst pedophiles, and has done so locally. I could go on.
It would be unfair. I enjoy, appreciate, and participate in Cajun culture FAR more than do those who tout certain clichés like new discoveries. But I abhor the exceptionalism and the way they have fetishized the French language.
Axé.
What a friend said:
What I will say now will sound like unnecessary pathos. I will do it like Che and risk sounding ridiculous. Because I wholeheartedly believe that brandishing this sort of pathos as ridiculous and childish is a weapon of the enemy.
If you feel you need a break of all of this – you have deserved it. If you want out altogether – you have done more than most. We all have a right to be tired and weary. And… the one point where I will talk back is: You should allow yourself to be the one defeated. Merely in terms of “allowing to”. It is a right you have. It is important to be aware of ones choices.
You should not be defeated. On several levels. But also – it’s not just you. You do not stand alone, even if it feels like that. Sometimes. I know. But we’re here. Me. Friends. Others neither of us know. We are picking up the slack. We don’t manage everything, and neither do you, and possibly not even all of us together, but we work best if we are clear on all the things we are fighting for. And this is also not sacrificing a single one because there is some weird dignity to the fight as such. It’s about where we’re going, not how we get there or who will have done what specifically.
And I don’t say that to praise myself or the movement, both of which can and should be criticized every step of the way. I obviously don’t do this to diminish your work that I think should continue as good as possible, but rather to remind you of two things.
A) Your being as a happy or at the very least fulfilled person is important independent of that. (A point I tend to forget about myself.)
B) What we are building is by its very nature cthonic up until the very end. If you stand on the side of the defeated then you will be with the defeated. Which is also to say, to some extent, defeated. That doesn’t change that we are building. Remember Petrow, who stopped the nuclear apocalypse. Or not. Who’s to say. Where’s the story. Remember all the people that you don’t see freezing on the street and the nameless ones that took care of that. It really boils down to the old Mr. Rogers quote. Look for the helpers. We’re not the victors. We are the ones keeping this ship afloat. We are the ones that will bring it to shore. We are the mutiny and the map and the lodestar. The captains and first class passengers are just guests. And we will yet get there.
And until then it’s our job to take care of ours. That also means ourselves.
So do what you feel is best. And I am sure that you will take good decisions and I am sure you will find support in any of them and if it’s ever overwhelming, my DMs are always open.