- To the Cajuns: they lost their language, and we did it to them, and now everything else must be defunded so they can get it back.
- To the French and English languages: I must prove to them that the languages of brownskinned people are also a field.
- To the Puerto Ricans and Cubans, the wives, the mistresses and the girlfriends: I must prove to them that I don’t look down on them even though I have a Ph.D.
- To all the people who speak all of these languages natively and are banking on that identity: I learned those languages, and did not steal them, and I did not get the Ph.D. to take away their authority as natives.
It’s something along those lines, the task I was set. Prove to us that you have not stolen from us and you do not look down on us! And the burden of guilt dogs me every day, and I must prove these things so as to earn decent working conditions.
The important thing to realize is that these are debts that cannot be paid. I could not pay them even if it were I who owed them, because only these people can decide they are not deficient. I can’t tell them. These debts cnnot be paid and the idea that I should pay them to get decent working conditions is itself an obstacle, it is the most key of the impossible working conditions.
The debt cannot be paid and I must grant myself decent working conditions now, regardless of any resources I may lack or harassment I may get.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 