That feeling of not being interested
I tend to think it’s because I’m actually not interested, but it’s a trauma reaction. Axé.
I tend to think it’s because I’m actually not interested, but it’s a trauma reaction. Axé.
Important. So, pinning to the top, we have the results: 1. Sacrificing everything to alleged institutional needs and goals is NOT actually good professional service. 2. My research is fantastic. I deserve to do it, and the world deserves it, even if it is not in one of the university’s desired disciplines (or challenges a … More The conclusions from my December moulting
Suspicion and informing. Students informing on each other, and one assigned to inform on the professor. Anne Appelbaum said this. I should look up more lists and see if more of my department’s characteristics are listed. Axé.
This is important and revealing, as it shows why I am and have been so traumatized by “cajunismo.” I waver between understanding that this happened, and it’s common, and I withstood it better than many, and thinking I should have found a way to reject it, see what was happening, and start batting on my … More The academic power and control wheel
Clarifying even more: you’re an American, and you have a Ph.D., and you speak Spanish, and we hate all of that, and it hurts us personally, and you need to try to understand that. THIS was the message and I, sincere to a fault, tried to understand it, allow for it, heal it. In the … More Today
A reminder. A Capricorn life is work and doing heavy lifting for others, without gratitude. But love and esthetics are important and must be honored. With Gemini rising, it is important to choose the discomfort of concentration. Do not let other people dissipate your life, and do not allow them to interrupt work. Gemini rising … More That astrological reading
I literally need shots for COVID, flu, and pneumonia, and should remember. In the meantime, there is also this, from a friend: “The state has gone all in on workforce preparation as their central model, and don’t agree that research or excellence do anything to help that. Universities as centers of innovation and economic development … More Inoculation
“The rural bars that played the music were not exactly accepting of all peoples. Living in New Iberia for over a decade now has really opened my eyes to the horrific inequality that exists. Both the poor and wealthy white here propagate violent white nationalism. The justice system (under a very religious Catholic majority) allows … More On Cajun culture, from a friend
…but is this too violent? Abuse and misogyny are endemic in Cajun culture. If you do not know this, it is because you are sheltered. That is why the idealization of this culture in the tourist literature—that many now take for academic history–is intolerable to me. Do not sing me one more damned song. * … More I want to say it on Facebook…
It’s something along those lines, the task I was set. Prove to us that you have not stolen from us and you do not look down on us! And the burden of guilt dogs me every day, and I must prove these things so as to earn decent working conditions. The important thing to realize … More That unpayable debt