Word for today: Опричник, oprichnik. I will learn the suffix -nik, ник, and apply it in English. I will learn to spell: noodnik, refusenik, vatnik, and other -nik words. I will discover the relation of -ik (Bolshevik, etc.) to -nik. Inspiration: Sorokin, Day of the Oprichnik. And there is also мобик, mobik. In other news … More Опричник


My 23d year in this house and at last I have a desk that really is the right height. I feel completely different. Completely. I also have a solid kitchen floor, after 23 years. There are only a few more things to do and the house will be quite comfortable. I have new tires and … More Things

Pérez Firmat

This is an exact description of what happened to me with my ill-fated Vallejo book. Its ill fate killed me and it took me a long time — seven years, I believe — to understand. If I had understood it then I could have worked on or with the situation. But I did not understand … More Pérez Firmat


This group is a non-profit but it depends upon the work of one member who thinks of that work as a way to live. They would like salary, and they have referred to us as a business. They are already getting reimbursed for mileage at the IRS business, not charity rate because they wanted to … More Why

Je te vois

On the concept of “feeling heard,” that I always mock. I do not ask of entities like the university that they merely hear me, I want them to actually do things (like hire on the tenure track). Being heard is nothing, I always say I want action.HOWEVER. What I always did want was to be … More Je te vois

Notes from the past

I found these notes from long ago, before I started this blog, about abusive parents. It seems like another world now, but it explains some things. 1/ Parents and money. How did I/will I/would I feel when I/if I accepted financial help? Answer: murdered/nonexistent. 2/ They cannot handle emotions. Any adverse emotion leads them directly … More Notes from the past


I went to get that book from the library and it was there, along with two books of interest I had heard of and one I had not, so I checked out all four. It was amazing. This paper is not in my field, but in a field the university supports, and I feel like … More Support