Feeling coerced, rushed. Disbelieved, mistrusted. Many mundane demands, many destructive people to satisfy. Many with needs greater than my own, many people hurt by luminosity. I must self-mutilate to fit in or I will not be safe. Joy and optimism are crushed and called insane or hurtful here. I feel Irritation, boredom, anger, fear, regret, … More My emotions around work
There was just something so unsettling about it, I assume maturity and good will as a rule and I am always surprised not to find it. One should be more suspicious, perhaps, but I don’t know. There’s been something deep about this interaction though, somehow related to my mother asking for so much effort and … More A strange interaction
That was a title of an old student paper, the first page of one copy of which I came across while cleaning the office files. It’s intriguing. They said that Mignolo was ultimately reinscribing a Western view of things, although he intends otherwise. I forget which Mignolo text I had assigned, but the title is … More Mignolo, el orientalista
Relate to Steiner, “In a post-culture”? Here is Restrepo’s article. Axé.
Self-limitation“Heroic” self-sacrifice–one of my self-limiting habits is staying up too late, so as to feel exhausted–You are too much / too challenging / we do not love you / we wanted a different kind of child / find a way to diminish yourself or we will put you out on the street“You don’t know yourself, … More Where’s the trauma?
“I could roll out a sad old list of ‘things that can help’. Absorb yourself in a really engrossing hobby. Go out with your friends. Switch off. Try to sleep better and longer. But that doesn’t help much in the toils of the big forces in play, which is why so many people became so … More My CUU article
“Eu gosto de batata-doce, o jeito que acho melhor é cortá-las em rodelas (mais grossas que para batata inglesa frita) e fritá-las, ficam sequinhas e polvilho sal por cima; gosto de fazê-la sauté (cozinho, corto em rodelas grossas e vou como que salteando na manteiga com temperos, como orégano, por ex. Assada no forno com … More Batata doce com Aurea
And typed out may sound incomprehensible to anyone but me. But I realized, just as I had realized earlier that I’d let my detractors take over my body and I had to get it back, that I’ve let them take over my work. If I get it back, I won’t have to struggle with them … More It’s a revolution
I am getting rid of my English translation of this novel because the cover is a little dingy and the book looks pedantic to me at the moment. But officially this is precisely the kind of novel I like. Axé.
I liked this piece on a new book and learned a good deal from it. And I want to read this by H.D., especially the section “writing on the wall.” Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 