I woke up this morning thinking about how my colleagues are measuring out their lives in coffee-spoons and are happy with this, while I always wanted to be involved in a large project of revolutionary love. That is the difference between me and the faculty and I saw it in my first job, where everyone else’s adventure was a mortgage, a pregnancy, cars, authority, and mine was not. I thought there would be more like me but there were not.
I always liked professors with big research projects but I always knew them among journalists with large projects, major activist projects, and things like that. For me there isn’t enough in just academic work and, say, another life in semi-professional music or art. For most people there is, and that is why my main job shouldn’t be professor, it should be a secondary one.
At this point what I have to say I am first is a writer and go with that as focus–it covers academic things and journalism as well. I don’t like either of the pieces I am writing now and if I approach them as a writer, not as an academic writer, they will go better since I will have more power.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 