Department of e-mails not sent: Dear committee member, The question would be what gives you the right to speak in this tone to anyone. If the dean, an AAUP member, confuses tenure track/tenured with FTE NTT, which I highly doubt he does, it would be our job to point out the error. To keep these … More Taking the high road
Working at a university that is cannibalizing itself, in department that is, and a state that is, is disheartening and it is hard not to feel downhearted, not to feel joy. I used to be energized by work and inspired by what happened on campus — it was why I liked school — but here … More Cannibalizing
So I have a truly major speaker coming, a project I did not think would be a good use of my time but that others wanted done, and they have now quit their roles in making the event truly happen well. On the other hand, I am being told I am doing a wonderful job … More “Opportunity cost?”
Something I really dislike that men do at work is go into hysterical fits about how the institution is dying and only I can help save it, beg me to help them with a major institution-saving project, convince me to commit to it 50%, and then forget about their 50% … and THEN act irritated … More Plus jamais
…that make me want to avoid it. Shame, which causes lethargy and withdrawal, which causes avoidance. Meanwhile, more interestingly: …trauma, anger, repression, self-recrimination, rebellion, claustrophobia, impatience, restlessness, desire to explore, desire to live, desire not to be entombed …I really need to unpack all of this. Axé.
I am so tired of having to psychoanalyze myself and also of finding that I keep coming to the same conclusions yet do not progress, or progress so slowly. In any case my insight, new for today is that a great part of my struggle here has to do with not having come here by my … More Insight du jour — once again
How to get them out. Axé.
I learned that the national domestic violence hotline is the best one, and the New Orleans family justice center is the best place. I learned about this book, Why does he do that, that is the most serious one I have seen. Most importantly, I learned about Creative Interventions. Axé.
I really should print and send that contract, in addition to other bureaucratic things. Axé.
1. I need some grounding techniques for when grief / pain / fear take over. One of the main ones is to remember I am a person and I have rights, and that I might not automatically be wrong or be guilty. 2. I take on entirely too much responsibility for everything, and really need … More What I learned today
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