As we know, I am in a writing group and committed to do research and ideally, writing daily. I always have a few minutes for this, no matter what, but I want to spend more time than that. I need to, if I am to get anything truly significant accomplished. I also deserve to because … More Public Opinion Poll
The point is that if you have any form of rational circumstance, all you have to do is put a bit of time into things and they can then be accomplished. I so, so, so dislike academic advice. Don’t spend time on this, or that, or the other, don’t spend any time time time. But … More …y me cago en la leche
Here is the shoe I recommend for this fall. Here is a .pdf of the piece of paper I received almost by chance, and here is the website I found years later. I associate academic advice and verbal abuse. While we are having foreign language wars in Maringouin, some of the sentences I hear in … More Off topic
I am recovering from a fit of depressive pique I had over a question of academic identity, really. I see this now having pondered that post by Squadromatico, which is not only about what parts of life one gave up, or what parts of one’s ambitions remain unrealized, but more profoundly about what parts of … More On identity, and on a battle line
Here is a comment I really support: “Part of being solid in a career is making those choices as to what you will and will not put up with. The thing that we all need to learn is to how to deal with it politically.” I like it because it goes against what I was … More Et plus tard
It is a gorgeous fall day with squirrels. Mantra: “It is worse than useless to treat an external problem as an internal one.” I do not know why the current culture asks us to engage in so much self criticism (actually I do know why, or what the instrumental reason for it is; I say … More Posdata: quelques images
Why are we asked to question ourselves so much? For several days I have been wishing some accident would come and kill me. This morning as I woke up, I was thinking: “well, since I want to die as badly as I do, I had better come up with a method that will really work, … More “It is worse than useless to treat an external problem as an internal one”
Self-esteem: por los suelos. Pressure, of every kind: high. Fatigue: extreme. Immediate Reason: the language program. I am so tired from it, and so traumatized from the language teaching wars. The trauma would end if we had a program with goals and policies, and if it were coherent and feasible and we all actually followed … More Today’s weather
NO. DON’T. Look at other kinds of research, writing, and speaking jobs. I wanted to use the PhD to work for UNESCO but got swept up in other peoples’ dreams for me. Then I wanted to go into law and was told I was betraying other peoples’ dreams for themselves and me, and had no … More “Take a job, any job”
As we know, the emotional pain I suffer is largely due to the sometimes real, but also perceived imperative to be someone other than who I am, and moreover to enjoy that, in order to survive (or get paid). Not merely pretend to be someone else or pretend to enjoy it, but to actually transform … More Bateson
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