I am shedding old paper issues of Critical Inquiry that contain articles from which I could surely learn. Benedict Anderson talks about nationalism as being born from exile. In the colonies there are non-English, English-identifying people and non-Spanish Spaniards. And “home” is always mediated, and remember, empires were polyglottal; nations were supposed to resolve hybridity. … More On nationalism, and on paper journals
The 1970 short “Meeting the Man.” He talks about the constant murder of Black people and how he left the US because he was sure it would kill him. He also says that most people do not love, or want to be free. “The world is held together by the love and passion of a … More Baldwin again
In the mindfulness group, people brought two things up: childhood PTSD and reactions to abandonment and neglect. The feeling that if you are not perfect you will be on the street. There are reasons to think about this in relation to my mother’s childhood and also mine. That is a short paragraph but an important … More Things related to my mother
Dysregulation, or a term, emotional dysregulation. I realize now that when Reeducation said I had no feelings, or could not feel my feelings, it meant that according to it, I should be dysregulated, based on its interpretation of my background. So I had to be dysregulated and hiding it, or I was not dysregulated but … More A vocabulary word
Someone said: 1/ They follow someone who defended the downtrodden and stood up to every authority, every oppressor, all alone. They admire this 2/ They know they are abusing people, hiding behind each other and acting in group think 3/ When someone actually takes a Christlike position, they are terrified 4/ And try to destroy … More On Christian Culture
Now it’s been a month since I committed to not doing anything self-destructive and to put my interests first. I’ve never done this before and it is very interesting. And difficult. I suffer from more anxiety than I realize. It’s frustrating because people think anxiety is excessive worry, about things that are not real. Treatments … More Hace un mes
The lady at the shoe repair says we should take Vitamin E and use No. 7, and I believe her, it’s worth trying. I need a good but inexpensive product so I can use lots of it. But which one? Must I get the whole package? Probably–I don’t have to use all of the pieces … More No. 7
Un matrimonio como muchos actually takes a couple from Havana to New Orleans to New York.And off topic but on work, integrity is the keyword for Murcia.
The friendly town of extroverts The man with the Treme coffee house T shirt, and the call from Joe: I am from down South The deli on Bleeker Street, the chess players MoMA. Union Square. Film Forum. More of the Village. Strolling. Axé.
What was diabolical about that aspect of Reeducation was how closely it replicated my first education. I have said this before, but I see it so clearly now. There are deep common elements, authoritarianism, narcissism, and a faulty logic that I think is some kind of fash psyop, really. I remember puzzling over these contradictions … More Diabolical
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