Sur la souffrance

Also in Reeducation, it was important to suffer so as to prove one could feel pain (pain being the only actually admissible feeling). One could not feel pain and do something about it — that would be “impulsive.” One had to feel pain and “grieve” it, lament and suffer. I had always found that to … More Sur la souffrance

On Transference

I had a realization about how Reeducation worked and what it killed via a comments thread on a different post. I could write a coherent post about that if I had time, and the comment is really just a pre-note, the thoughts in it are not well worked out at all. For now I am … More On Transference

Reauthorization. Stomping on Dat Whiteman.

Reeducation deauthorized. “You are not authorized to be a successful person. The degree of power you wield in your own life is highly inappropriate in a person of your background.” “You must disempower yourself. You must recognize that your happiness and integrity is an illusion based on denial. You are not authorized to live as … More Reauthorization. Stomping on Dat Whiteman.

Anda jaleo, jaleo

It is the weekend, and we have found an interesting song. 18 July 1936 was the first day of the Spanish Civil War. There is a short 1938 film about it starring Juan Beigbeder, Raimundo Fernández Cuesta, Francisco Franco, Manuel Augusto García Viñolas, José Millán Astray, and Ramón Serrano Súñer, that I would like to … More Anda jaleo, jaleo

Reeducation Was

… a series of lessons in how to perfect absolute sadism toward oneself, particularly one’s intellectual self. No right to exist / to be who one was. No right to enjoy life. No right to think. No right to trust one’s perceptions. Academic and professional success reencoded as failure. No right to power in one’s … More Reeducation Was

Voice Four

Now I might really be over Reeducation, which was that in part because it involved not only becoming a professor in the United States and coming to live in the East. Today there are Mexicans working next door. Their voices sound like home. I realize once again how unheimlich it still is to me never … More Voice Four

Reading for Pleasure Wednesday, Bastille Day Edition: John Locke

“Books seem to me to be pestilent things, and infect all that trade in them…with something very perverse and brutal. Printers, binders, sellers, and others that make a trade and gain out of them have universally so odd a turn and corruption of mind, that they have a way of dealing peculiar to themselves, and … More Reading for Pleasure Wednesday, Bastille Day Edition: John Locke