There is a breeze, and I am over my crisis. This is, as we know, a mystical town full of spirits who jangle at you or sweep through. As usual, I have had a multifaceted crisis — it always involves a house, a writing project, and an arbitrary power from home — and have discussed it intensely with friends here and abroad.
I no longer feel the need to explain my point of view on any of it to any of the principals, however, because I no longer care what they think. This is the town where you get that axé.
In the current episode, I believe the achievement involved relearning, post Reeducation, how to fechar o corpo, close the body against all ill. Reeducation assumed this important ability was some form of emotional deficiency, but the opposite is true.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
Bravo.
Start insisting that people nurture you, and that includes any men you let into your life.
Nurture, that is an interesting word. I believe I was actually raised to be one of those people in the movie MATRIX, you know, they are hooked to some machine to give blood and that is what they are in the world for. And if you nurtured yourself at all, well, that was a sin.
This repeats a lot, particularly from men, where operative word is, I think, predatory. My Reeducator was definitely one such (although gay).
P.S. AHA. Now I know something, I think. I think what I was doing about “S” was grieving — the whole thing, all the events, and the loss of the illusion of a friendship. That is why my mind is now so clear, perhaps; perhaps it is that I actually went through it instead of try to jump over it or push it away. This is very interesting.
Do you have the same, or similar, sorts of problems with women that you have with men? If so, then “cultural misunderstanding” seems like a valid interpretation. If not, then I’d say it’s something else, and suggest trying to rent and arrange rides (etc) from women.
Actually, I do! It’s a certain personality I have trouble with. When I was younger, I never dared have this problem with men because I knew it would be lethal. I only had it with women. Then I got better at dealing with it so I dared to also have it with men. I realize how weird this sounds. But I’ve always been trying to deal with this problem. Each individual I have it with is some new kind of challenge. My goal is to learn how to sidestep this problem entirely.
But men in Z’s position get all kinds of help from women. Why doesn’t she get any help from men? I insist that any man in my life benefits me.
Well, I do get help from some men. Just not the ones I complain about on this blog, because this blog is about Reeducation and the problem I went to it about. Insisting that any man in one’s life benefit one is a good idea.