I think much of my depression and disorientation came from giving up my research focus and rhythm. Research and writing give focus and order to the day and I had always had them. I gave up a great piece of myself — more than that, I renounced most of myself — and there was no … More Equinox
On the paralysis of guilt. Axé.
First: be good to myself and not panic. Next: the links on that page, the Raza cósmica bibliography, the course poster [WHICH CAN WAIT], the grading, and the application. There is of course this paper which must be dealt with [WHICH CANNOT WAIT]. But for the rest of this day, the grading and a walk … More What can I do for ME?
I am a late discoverer of Cuéntame como pasó and watching it, I realize I am Spanish. I, too, remember the things this program remembers, and feel interpellated by the “nosotros” in the theme song. The show speaks to everyone, and is light as it must be, for television. The episode here embedded is heavy, … More Cuéntame como pasó
– Not fret. – Touch real work. – Communicate about real work. – Remember that sleep is the most important thing. – There are some other things, but these are the essentials. (I must apply for that funding, and unearth that student’s paper, and look at my list.) Axé.
The term “soul murder” could fit. The feeling of having been killed. That is why I started this weblog as the weblog of someone speaking from beyond the grave.) It is hard to do academic work in field because the person who did that was killed. Or, as I said many years ago, went into … More Notes on “soul murder”
The weather is pleasant today and I could suffer less than I do. I have paid off a card and so in shopping news I ordered jeans and a bag, that I needed, and decided to buy glasses, that I need, and all of these things are for work. I have also located a bicycle, … More Un dimanche, and a self-indulgent, self-involved post. Or not: it starts out with consumerism, yet ultimately it could be a psychoanalytic post.
…and the time for that, and the validity of the research identity, and the authority to do research, are what Reeducation took. I am not sure I agree with everything in this post, or identify, but it is of interest and I do not think Vallejo had the idyllic childhood they say he had. Axé.
My explanation for this record is unsatisfactory: I simply never saw the point of school. I loved the long process of understanding. In school, I often felt like I was doing something else. There is a great deal to say about various points made in this piece. A side comment from me is that perhaps … More Pour penser
Working in a profession which you have been shamed for having and where you have also been shamed for being competent, and which you have in addition been shamed for being willing to consider as one option among many. This multiple shame factor is so great as to be paralyzing and the time I spend … More That academic allergy