A recipe for green beans
20/08/2024
I want to make this. Axé.
Month: August 2024
Writing resistance August 20
20/08/2024
This is actually quite good. I don’t feel the authority or focus to write, I want to to hide and heal, but what if I can meditate for some minutes and do that, and writing is a sanctuary that rebuilds the self? My relationship with the world. I don’t really deserve to be recognized or … More Writing resistance August 20
Planning Monday, August 19
19/08/2024
Book description: here is where to talk about the other translations. Gabás paper: I could perhaps use Gabilondo’s work on post-imperial Spain as some kind of counterpoint. I need to talk to Rasmussen if I’m going to make this change in the Louisiana conference schedule. And: LASA proposals are due September 9! And I’ve got … More Planning Monday, August 19
A visit to Louisiana’s Death Row
18/08/2024
The visit was wonderful, I used to hate the drive along I-10E (AKA the San Bernardino Freeway) and then US 61N (the highway that goes right by Dylan’s “baby’s” door, but that in reality is really depressing) but now with GPS it is possible to snake around beautiful country lanes I wouldn’t be able to … More A visit to Louisiana’s Death Row
The “University of DYI”
16/08/2024
This is a new inside joke that I won’t explain here, but it is the most therapeutic thing I have heard in a long time, perhaps ever. Or it is in the top five. Notes on things: In other news, I went to a training, which wasn’t entirely terrible as a review session. To fight … More The “University of DYI”
On nationalism, and on paper journals
11/08/2024
I am shedding old paper issues of Critical Inquiry that contain articles from which I could surely learn. Benedict Anderson talks about nationalism as being born from exile. In the colonies there are non-English, English-identifying people and non-Spanish Spaniards. And “home” is always mediated, and remember, empires were polyglottal; nations were supposed to resolve hybridity. … More On nationalism, and on paper journals
Baldwin again
10/08/2024
The 1970 short “Meeting the Man.” He talks about the constant murder of Black people and how he left the US because he was sure it would kill him. He also says that most people do not love, or want to be free. “The world is held together by the love and passion of a … More Baldwin again
Things related to my mother
09/08/2024
In the mindfulness group, people brought two things up: childhood PTSD and reactions to abandonment and neglect. The feeling that if you are not perfect you will be on the street. There are reasons to think about this in relation to my mother’s childhood and also mine. That is a short paragraph but an important … More Things related to my mother
A vocabulary word
07/08/2024
Dysregulation, or a term, emotional dysregulation. I realize now that when Reeducation said I had no feelings, or could not feel my feelings, it meant that according to it, I should be dysregulated, based on its interpretation of my background. So I had to be dysregulated and hiding it, or I was not dysregulated but … More A vocabulary word
On Christian Culture
07/08/2024
Someone said: 1/ They follow someone who defended the downtrodden and stood up to every authority, every oppressor, all alone. They admire this 2/ They know they are abusing people, hiding behind each other and acting in group think 3/ When someone actually takes a Christlike position, they are terrified 4/ And try to destroy … More On Christian Culture
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