I seem to see the forces in the university who press to dismantle programs and work against students and faculty as a truly lethal threat. And because they wrap themselves in the Cajun flag and say they are poor oppressed Cajuns trying to support other Cajuns, and play Cajun music, I end up angry at the music itself because I am still trying to be civil and believe the best. That is one way of interpreting my reaction.
What to do with it? First, realize that I do at some level know they really are a lethal threat. Second, come up with a self-protection plan for me. I think I really should get protective magick. Third, I don’t think I should expect myself to be able to put up with Cajun music.
This isn’t enough, though. I have to remind myself every fifteen minutes or so that I am a person, not a worm for Cajuns to step on. That I have validity. This, too, is just a vague sketch. I am tired.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 