It’s my birthday! For my birthday, I will try to act henceforth as though I loved myself. It’s a very good project. What would it feel like to refuse to engage in arguments with others over my being and my right to exist? What would it feel like if I were immune to claims that … More December 24
I should stop tearing myself apart over this, I would like to be immune from it, but it feels as though I need to understand it so I can get it out of me. There is a fine line between thinking too much and thinking enough, I know. I don’t want to nurse resentment the … More Et encore
I was to re-experience the feeling that people want to get rid of you, force you onto the street. I had this feeling from early on and had finally shaken it before I went into Reeducation. Shockingly, Reeducation wanted me to take that burden up again, take it up doubly. The basic message of analysis/Reeducation … More One of the last psychoanalytic posts – notes
I think I am over Reeducation. At least very close. I like my name Coldhearted Scientist but wonder whether I should get a new one for this phase. Axé.
Recently, I’ve had some days where I felt well here, bringing summer relaxation from Europe and keeping the bubble around me. Not all days, and right now I am not doing well. All of this is to say I shouldn’t prevent myself from feeling well, don’t need to transfer pain onto work, don’t need to … More Comment vivre
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