This repost is dedicated, variously, to Clarissa, Feminéma, Jonathan Mayhew, Historiann, New Kid on the Hallway, Tenured Radical, and Undine, to a few others I have forgotten, to some interesting assistant professor blogs like Paper Chase and Uentdenckt that have disappeared. Remember, I am for the rights of adjuncts and I believe they should have … More On Being New Faculty
Petita bonica, lireta liró. Rossignol que vas a França, rossignol. Nightingale on your way to France, send me a score above 160. Naturally I want a score above 170 but that would be lagniappe. Above 160 is good, rossignol. Student: I failed because I did not do homework. Two years at this university and I … More Lo que ens falta, ho tindrem, lireta liró
I am academically oriented in fact, but originally this industry was also important to me because it was the only place I knew I was competent. It was thus the only route to sustenance and safety, and I cared about it for those reasons as well as purer ones. That is why my first academic … More L’histoire, or, Conjugations and Declensions, or Something I Wrote Before Writing My Very Important Post
To break a spell, you are to say to the requisite person, “You have no power over me any more.” And believe it, and breathe it in, and make it true. Others, it appears, are already well settled into academic writing schedules and summer routines. I have three finals to give and grade, and two … More No Power Over Me Any More. A Very Important Post.
The reason I feel academic work is destructive is the prevalence and repetition of menaces and threats therein. From birth I am familiar with this feeling — someone will make a misstep, work will be cut. It is hard to concentrate in this atmosphere. There are no jobs, one false move and you are gone, … More On Menaces and Threats
As you can see and will see, I am really exhausted and depressed. My cat, who was my anti-suicide insurance is gone, and just any cat will not do the trick. Getting out of town makes my other identity, the happy one, kick in but this summer I am incarcerated here — against all plans, … More Psychological Hygiene for Summer
One of my colleagues said yesterday, “You have so many talents, so many competencies for so much, it is really admirable.” * The more I think about it the more I realize how deep the guilt is that keeps me in place, growing quieter each year. Let us review my sins, as I feel them, … More On Leaving
To A Spectre: 1. I am dismayed at the amount of destruction I have allowed to be wreaked upon me and that I have participated in wreaking. 2. I am clearing out files and finding old identity cards. I see the bright face of the person I helped to destroy, in the era in which … More X
I do not want yet more discipline, I want to fall apart and sleep for a long time. Then, I want to work on my new life, not grind away at the old one on the theory that if I just motivate myself in the right way everything will be all right. Unfortunately I really … More On Advice
The reason I am so depressed is that I am seeing so clearly how I have allowed as much of my life to be stolen as I have done. I usually shield myself from seeing this so clearly because the pain of it is as sharp as it is, but the panorama is in view … More Asynchronous
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