He almorzado solo ahora, y no he tenido madre, ni súplica, ni sírvete, ni agua, ni padre que, en el facundo ofertorio de los choclos, pregunte para su tardanza de imagen, por los broches mayores del sonido. Cómo iba yo a almorzar. Cómo me iba a servir de tales platos distantes esas cosas, cuando habráse … More Trilce XXVIII
In the first place, it is not necessarily easy to get the deceased’s eyes closed. The eyelids resist. In the second place, I had been informed one should sing for the dying. This seemed to work but I did not have songs prepared ahead, so we had Corrocloclo and a traditional nana. Yo no siento … More On death: a field report.
People say we are in the best profession because we have the most autonomy and my difficulty here is the cognitive dissonance: one is said to have autonomy, but this means in practice only that one has no support … and one is in fact working under a regime of total control. A student writes: … More That most wonderful profession
I am completely different now, I warn you; if you did not meet me before 1991, you do not know me. In any case, I went to a statewide meeting in central Louisiana, passing by chance through the old market town of Lecompte which was very beautiful. It is well above sea level there. You … More Lecompte, Louisiane
Now I am transformed, having decided I have authority. This is new … very new. It frees up a lot of head-space. Self-doubt was the goal of Reeducation, but I was like this before. Getting further to the bottom of what Reeducation did: I think it said, lodged in us, the idea that we were … More Transformatif
“If you are not a professor, then you are an uncultured person interested only in money.” “Because you were so selfish as to do the Ph.D, you owe it to the world to be a professor — in any circumstances, and no matter what else you might have to give up.” “If you are not … More It is an ignorant attitude, actually
I think I will go to the botánica and have trauma removed. I am utterly allergic to having teaching supervised by persons who know nothing about it. I used to feel fear and guilt around this, but now I feel anger. I do not think the way I “check out” of these traumatic situations is … More Botánica
At the café we discussed our lack of focus and the disturbing agitation of the atmosphere this semester. We decided we were not actually slackers, but that we had our energy blocked, and were “checked out” because of wanting to check out not from our work but from the disturbing atmosphere. We decided we should … More Au café
I should talk about kinds of music, nature, and possibly storybooks and poems, to participate in that series on “formation.” I should also talk about the grape boycott and related events of that time. Really what I have to say is that I should never have left California or rather, that I never had the … More Stand-in
(It is amazing how much I have to write in here to encourage myself and de-terrorize myself, is it not?) It is amazing how one of the reasons I am afraid to start working on anything work related, especially teaching related, because when I do I will hear the voice of dat whiteman saying I … More Et encore, le mantra de la semaine
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