Dimanche matin

I woke up noticing that a large part of the anxiety and precarity is financial. I should do yoga and meditate so that I recognize this when it comes up and set it aside. How to increase income: promotion. The rest of it is the self-care issue which is really the self-love issue, as we … More Dimanche matin

Mélancholique

This is the new computer. I am upset because I think I might have already destroyed its optical drive. I destroy things inadvertently due to anxiety, so this is possible, but as Undine would say, if it is destroyed, it can be repaired. I just don’t like doing violence to things, especially inadvertently. It is … More Mélancholique

Dolce anno nuovo

So, as I have announced elsewhere, my key word for 2014 is power, remembering that one does in fact have power. In Reeducation we were to be powerless, to succumb to the effects of our worst experiences, and to disbelieve our own perceptions because we were, it was alleged, born with permanent defects that meant … More Dolce anno nuovo

On Utah

The reason I am this irritated, of course, is that California is this beautiful and I am in exile. In any case, it turns out that before becoming a teacher in California my grandmother was one in Washington, Oregon, and before that, Utah, all in the first years of the twentieth century. In Utah she … More On Utah

La belle vie

I have escaped to California until further notice. Rural Louisiana is entirely too hard to take but check this out: I wrote an entire book review on the plane, because the world of reason begins (people do not understand this, but they just do not know) at the Texas state line. All bets are off … More La belle vie