“I do not know whether I fear failure, or success,” writes a friend. I know him quite well and I am sure he fears both. Failure, because he has had a hard time lately and feels weak; to fail would be to suffer yet another blow. Success, because he would lose his identity as underdog, … More On “Fear of Success”
CTK is a truly great performer. Here he is on Da Thrill Is Gone (From Here). *** My statement for today is unrelated to CTK. It seems important to recall that the reason I call Reeducation, Reeducation is that in it we had to engage in such constant and severe self-criticism. Rather than meditate so … More Chris Thomas King
Now everyone is quoting from Naomi Wolf’s important book and reposting video and paper interviews with her. Qlipoth offers this fascinating quotation (emphasis is mine): I have a section in the book about how lies in a fascist shift serve a different purpose than they do in a democracy. In a democracy, people lie to … More Naomi Wolf
On How Using Power Means Being Responsible. In one of my departments I have an administrative role. Nobody understands how I accomplish so much with such little trouble. It is because I inform myself well, assert power in a useful way, look ahead, and keep up with things. I do this because I am working … More Courtney Martin
Playful I am 52% Geek and 74% Addicted to Blogging. Now you, too, can play these pleasant games. Violent I reiterate that the dicta “you have no power,” “it is ‘dysfunctional’ to believe you have any power,” “you must renounce power” and all similar statements are arguably the meanest and most destructive which can be … More Playful, Violent, Dreaming, Waking, Pure, Comical
That you should not exert power or have control in your life was one of the main themes of Reeducation. I have explained to myself before, in numerous posts on Reeducation and the relevant comments threads, why this is a fallacy. I still have a bad habit of relinquishing power. Relinquishing power means neglecting the … More Sur le pouvoir
I For someone as sophisticated as myself, I can be quite slow on the uptake. I always wondered why, if a certain relative of mine really felt I were as evil as he said I was, he still extended social invitations to me. I always felt quite odd, like the poor cousin in a Victorian … More On Discerning Abuse
I Does the average person go around looking over their shoulder, feeling “unsafe?” When I left Reeducation, the only explanation it would accept was that I “did not feel safe” in it. I played this card in desperation, for Reeducation was saying but, but, but, how did I expect to live without it, and so … More On “Feeling Unsafe”
I took the Bem Sex Role Inventory Test, by Weird Science, and my score was “Androgynous.” I have 90% of all possible masculine characteristics and 70% of all possible feminine ones. “You scored high on both masculinity and femininity. You have a strong personality exhibiting characteristics of both traditional sex roles,” said the test. As … More M/F Test!
I have said several times in these pages that I do not find change difficult. I did, however, find the change asked of me in Reeducation difficult. This task involved changing my focus in life from joy and pleasure to suffering and pain. I did not want to take this plunge and it was very … More Pinch and Reversal
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