I keep discovering that my experience with Reeducation is legion, and uncovering new evidence of why Reeducation is or was a program designed to lead backward in life. As we know, one of the more obvious anti-teachings of Reeducation was that one should not act to solve problems (this was “controlling”), but should ruminate upon their possible origins (this was “feeling”). The other was that no problem could be a result of needs not being met. All were results of chemical imbalances (they were “illnesses”) and insufficient obedience and resignation (this was “acceptance”).
I keep noticing that one of the main positive results people report from various types of cures is that they are now more in control of their lives. This is always interesting to me since being in control of one’s life was the worst sin one could commit, or the cardinal sign of “illness” according to Reeducation. I wonder if the rewind technique would cure me of Reeducation. Observe:
I often wish I could just erase Reeducation, go back to being who I was before it happened, and sometimes I feel as though I have. And it is said you cannot go back. But the rewind people say you can.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
I thought the video was good. It was too optimistic for my taste, but still on the right path.
Interesting..because I kept thinking he was saying “human gibbons” rather than “human givens”.
Well, it is also interesting that the symptoms tend to generalise with regards to all sorts of situations over time. That is surely what happened to Marechera.
Also what I’ve realised about my own situation, insofar as I have also been minorly shattered, is that the aspect that was causing me to experience and re-experience trauma was the fear of being in a helpless situation again. But then I realised that the past sense of helplessness I had was related to the internalisation of this mental script.
So, insofar as I am not thinking any more in terms of that script, I can expect not to be rendered helpless.
But understanding why I did feel so bad as I did in the past is VERY important to me.
A little optimistic, yes: I can’t figure out which trauma I would re-visualize, and I am not sure it could be done correctly. But I like the idea of rewinding, healing.