I had written about three more paragraphs of vitriol, about my irritation with entitled beings, but I erased them inadvertently and cannot reconstruct. I feel horrible because of teaching 5 classes and doing other work too, it is grueling, and I do not have good habits at this time (as in, always going to the pool at five, no matter what), which makes things worse.
However, I have just written 937 words. I couldn’t face not Getting Something Done because it’s the only way to fight back, so, although I am in downright pain from fatigue and cannot really see straight, I wrote 937 words and they are actually rather good.
How this was possible: because my project is well formed. I did not pull 937 words out of the air. I had notes and I had been obsessing on phrasing and framing for a couple of nights. I know what I am trying to get across so writing is not exploration, it is getting it down, and in that situation I am willing and able to cut and save for later other good ideas that just do not fit.
And that is how people do it. They don’t “just write.”
Axé.
yes, thank you.
Yes! That’s a good amount of writing, and the right way to do it. Good for you!
You are my hero, Z.
It doesn’t happen every day.
It makes me so angry that you have to teach five sections.
Oh, tanto faz. One is so easy it is like a study group, and it’s one I could have cancelled, so really it’s only 4 strictly required. But you know how it is here, as our new hire points out: it’s like being an instructor, and at that kind of pay, but with professor responsibilities added on. No wonder we have lead shoes!