I keep thinking: if I just do this, if I just do that, if I just mollify them in this way or stand up to them in that way, if I just improve myself in this direction or that, and so on, they will stop obstructing me and mine and stop making it so hard for us and our program to advance.
That is the hallmark of a certain kind of situation. And I keep saying it is I whom at fault: I who do not work well enough, I who am not patient enough, I who react to current situations as if they were situations that existed in the past, I who treat myself in a way that is less than kind.
“If I just change myself.” “It was my fault.” In this site, click on “defective” and you will see why I so strongly object to the declarations that “this is the best profession in the world.”
If you were serious or worthwhile, dear, you would love what you are doing with all your heart. If you were any good at it, you would not be treated this way.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 