This went medium well. I am glad I was as prepared as I was, down to the last drop.
What I want to say is that as I train myself to be as obsequious as is considered meet, I train myself out of the authority to finish any writing project, too.
I first noticed this contradiction long ago and it is a fact that here, we are expected to at least seem very obsequious.
One must feign that and not internalize it, is the answer, but I do not find that feigning it is a useful exercise for me.
It is especially difficult since in other units this is much less required. Is that is why some do not want people in our college to have contact with people in other colleges — their evil influence?
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
The thing I want solved, ultimately, or discussed: systematic marginalization of our subfield and what have always appeared to me to be attempts at suppression of major and of faculty who are trying to function as faculty. I wonder if this can even be raised.