I am sure people do not believe it but I really am pouring out las últimas gotas not just of Reeducation but of all related traumas. This blog is about to go straight-up academic and merge with the Seminario Permanente. Acabaremos but I do have one more comment on things people say about work: “Life invaded.” My contrapropuesta is that it was probably death that actually invaded, and that such things should be resisted. Soon I will not be a poisoning victim any more.
Before I got caught in the common run of things, that is to say before I got invaded by death which included numerous professors who, I now see, may have been less traumatized than I but had never been as organized and were committed to different things than I was, I had time scheduled in the day and week for “life.” This is not to say one cannot have a calamity or a major event throw one off track but I think having “life invade” is not a good idea because work is also life.
In Reeducation one was supposed to “give oneself credit for [being Reeducated]” which logically I did not see the point of. It seemed to me that if one was draining research and recreation time to the acquisition of tools for self destruction it was not something to “give oneself credit” for but something to stop doing. I was outvoted on this and I am still assailed by bad dreams, and I lose parts of days because of them. That is why it takes me 60 or 70 hours at work to get 40 hours of work. I can “cut corners” but then I do not get 40 hours of good work, so I do not progress if I do not put more in, accommodate the death (and not life) invasion, work around it.
This is why, once again, the idea of “life invading” has to go. Life should always be there and should have plenty of space to stretch its toes, and should not be considered an invasion.
Es la invasión de la muerte que hay que resistir, porque de es de esa invasión que hay que recuperar la vida; tienes que quedar pensando en otras cosas, supuestamente profundas pero quizás simplemente barrocas, y no en las cosas que realmente tenías que resolver.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 