It is sunny, once again, and I love the light.
I still cannot believe what Reeducation talked me into doing, how destructive it was, and how nobody would believe it.
I so wish I had managed to leave the scene of the crime. Not being allowed to leave, of course, is the camp aspect of the whole thing.
The elements of it are all intertwined.
In the world, we should not be academics but now that we had started we must stay, regardless of what happens, largely to atone for having started, or for having dared to do something.
In Reeducation, we should of course not be successful at anything as it was considered antithetical to “happiness” and “health” that we allegedly lacked.
The things one wanted to do and the time that will not return. The consolations and justifications one can formulate. The fact that really, in the end, these are simply losses.
#OccupyHE
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 