One of the things I learned from this is what a good reader I am myself. I need some more technical training and should probably go ahead and get it. Here are some notes:
- Gemini rising, so my chief operating system is AIR. I’m cerebral, want to make sense of things understand; I gravitate toward environments that stimulate learning, communication, and the sharing of ideas
- Gemini is a mutable sign, fast moving, used to change and comfortable with it, quick to insight. With such quick-moving mind it can be hard to pin down thought, concentrate, drill down. On the other hand, I can hold many things in mind at once, manage many things at once
- Gemini is ruled by Mercury and my Mercury is in Capricorn in the 9th house. I can rise to most challenging occasions; it is through long-distance travel that I feel the most myself
- Uranus sextiles the Ascendant. A Uranian person, I am willing to communicate with unusual people and beings, and my interpretations are often a step ahead of the crowd. So I often feel I don’t fit in. I’ve got my eye on the future and on improvement for everyone, and am not self-serving, but working for humanity (that appears to be more unusual than I realize; also, this reminds me of that photograph of me in DK, refusing to participate in a group trust-building activity, and staring out with a long stare)
- Pluto squares the Ascendant, indicating an unstable early environment
- Moon trines the Ascendant: I am a nurturer in the home environment, creating the feeling of home, making domestic spaces; the Moon rules my second house of money and trining the Ascendant, it means I have access to money, can make it, attract it, can be in good shape with it–this is augmented by the opposition of Mars to the Moon
- Although Aries, the sign Mars is in, is on the cusp of my 12th house. This is the house of hidden enemies and self-undoing; I may be too generous, may lose money to love/marriage/business partners, or just contribute more than I should
- Partner: Saturn squares Pluto. I could also have a partner in the acquisition of wealth
- Venus/Saturn conjunction on the cusp of the 7th house: it is I who do the heavy lifting in partnerships. Partnerships are the most challenging activity for me in this lifetime and perhaps the one from which I can learn the most…
I’ve got a recording of this and it was interesting. But again–I have a lot of questions, and I think I’m close to qualified to do this, and I’d like to study my own chart more, too. I should deepen my study in a formal course, yes.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
A task: to get over not having gotten to do the things I didn’t get to do, because of — Reeducation.
I’m not over it because I keep thinking I could have done things differently, I could have this, I could have that. And because I had expectations of a better life than what I got.
How to think of it: people who ended up in a war and destroyed, or who had other things happen that they couldn’t control, also suffer losses. I don’t think of myself like that, I think I should have been able to control it. That’s why I don’t get over it (in addition to the fact that I assigned myself to overcome it by staying in academia with the expectations I had of myself in that, etc., the fact that I didn’t escape from the wreckage, or recover financially). But to get free, to stop living in mourning, to get this out of myself, I think I need to give up the idea that I should have been able to control the disaster, avoid it