The term “soul murder” could fit. The feeling of having been killed. That is why I started this weblog as the weblog of someone speaking from beyond the grave.) It is hard to do academic work in field because the person who did that was killed. Or, as I said many years ago, went into … More Notes on “soul murder”
The weather is pleasant today and I could suffer less than I do. I have paid off a card and so in shopping news I ordered jeans and a bag, that I needed, and decided to buy glasses, that I need, and all of these things are for work. I have also located a bicycle, … More Un dimanche, and a self-indulgent, self-involved post. Or not: it starts out with consumerism, yet ultimately it could be a psychoanalytic post.
…and the time for that, and the validity of the research identity, and the authority to do research, are what Reeducation took. I am not sure I agree with everything in this post, or identify, but it is of interest and I do not think Vallejo had the idyllic childhood they say he had. Axé.
My explanation for this record is unsatisfactory: I simply never saw the point of school. I loved the long process of understanding. In school, I often felt like I was doing something else. There is a great deal to say about various points made in this piece. A side comment from me is that perhaps … More Pour penser
Working in a profession which you have been shamed for having and where you have also been shamed for being competent, and which you have in addition been shamed for being willing to consider as one option among many. This multiple shame factor is so great as to be paralyzing and the time I spend … More That academic allergy
It seems that many of the freedom songs we studied so assiduously in early elementary school were actually from the Socialist Songbook. The plot thickens, and I am not complaining. There is this: “Ain’t going to let electric prodders / turn me ’round / I’m a marching to freedom land.” That is from the 1950s, … More That Socialist Songbook
This article, which I got from Clarissa, misses the point once again. Of course it is good to get up and do things, including when you think you do not feel like it or find it difficult to begin. This fact has never been in question. Neither has the idea that you should work on … More So many people are so mechanistic, and so superficial (and such blowhards)
The way to write is to write 2.5 hours in the morning and do things that strengthen you the rest of the time. But those are just practicalities. At a deeper level, you have to fill the project with yourself, as Proust might have said, and pull it onto your ground. I find myself unable … More Comment écrire
Oui. Axé.
It is like self-injury, or is self-injury. It has been happening since Reeducation said (or seemed to say, or communicated) I did not deserve to be enjoying life as I was, to be in as good health as I was or to have achieved the things I had. I should stop following any Reeducated recommendations. … More The mistreatment
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