Does “the therapeutic model” (as though there were only one) interdict practitioners from identifying or naming experiences such as emotional abuse? Should practitioners not say such things “as they might intrude upon their client’s reality”? I would say not: not to recognize such things is to ignore what is happening. I also wonder why emotional … More Et voilà
What was that conversation plan I sketched out on the terrace today? Not in these words, but some of the following points. All of them are key, but only some are to be said. In no particular order. 1. On speaking directly: I want more of it (address the culture of rumors). 2. I have … More Pour la semaine prochaine: preparing for trial again
…I relate to academia the way abuse victims relate to the world and this was why I knew I was disabled and should leave. People did not see this, and at the time I did not have the language to explain it. This is because of having had a few abusive situations and then, when … More La perception du jour
My psychological and academic suffering has much more to do with my specific department than I had realized. Usually I think the issues are what I bring with me and do not allow myself to see how much is structural. Also, the capitalistic idea that money does not buy happiness is false. Every time I … More Illuminations
I feel different now, as though a missing tile had been installed in my spinal column, something along those lines. I am getting to be almost as lucid as before Reeducation. It is this solid feeling, and I see I can feel even more solid. I remember being this way. Still, I dreamed I had … More Progress
Thank you for all of your instruction and guidance in my education and my post graduation plans. While your classes at first intimidated me, the challenges they present have become a pleasure, and in the end, I find they have been defining of my time at Vichy State. Your attitude and expectations have always encouraged … More La psychanalyse du vendredi
“The Vichy State faculty I am bored with are those who say students of our largest local ethnicity are less capable than other students. When I taught at State Flagship University there were also many students of our local ethnicity and faculty never made this kind of distinction, or voiced this kind of slur.” #OccupyHE … More What I would like to post as my Facebook status, but will not
…so I went to school and went to class and everything is fine. It is just: I am so scarred by teaching recalcitrant freshmen and having old-fashioned supervisors on my case about THEIR ideas of how freshmen should be served. I am so tired of being so far away from everything. I am so seriously … More Hmm…
“Don’t spend too much time on teaching or you will end up as an adjunct” is code for: “The kinds of courses [women and] adjuncts teach, take up inordinate amounts of time and if you engage in that, you will never get ahead.” I was always willing to conduct literary research and teach so as … More On spending too much time on teaching
It is that one is not required to be one’s own enemy. In Reeducation this was required, and a great deal of academic advice is structured in the same way: one is to suspect and mistrust oneself. One could even harbor friendly feelings toward oneself. I have done this sometimes — especially, as I remember, … More I see
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