We did not get our grant and were in fact rated 20th out of 35 proposals. We received 76 points, with 70 being the minimum required for funding; some people received many fewer; nonetheless we were rated 20th. Only the first 8 were funded. Things wrong with us are, allegedly: a) our university already provides … More Bad, bad agency!
I have had trouble been mostly unhappy in academia ever since finishing the Ph.D and there are reasons for this having to do with my background, principally having been taught that I was not worthy and also that I should not be enjoying this. Because of these lessons everything I do is fraught with guilt, … More I am not a normal professor.
So it is Easter again, time to rise again, and so I shall. This is Oludumare, breathing peace into us after a terrible week. My week was terrible because of religiosity and machismo. It began on the wrong note, as I went to church on Palm Sunday because a colleague was singing. One likes to … More Olodumare, or Easter of Self-Respect
In addition to what is in the Ubuntu cloud, there are the files on my office computer. There are other files on the University mainframe. There are important files on: – two jump drives – the XP notebook, which has files under my name and under Admin – Dropbox I want to remember all of … More Recordatorio
So, today I snapped at, that is to say, spoke sharply to someone. What they had done: – tell me to do something I didn’t want to do – call me up and order me to choose one of two highly inconvenient meeting times; in response to my question, are these the only times the … More That cornered feeling
The difference between me and (white) Southerners is that they fear confrontation and I do not. (All you Confederates are bound to lose, and you know it. I realize this is a cheap shot but it’s just so easy, I cannot resist.) The reason they fear confrontation and I do not, is that they are … More I am not a Southerner
So, I thought I would volunteer to do this since I would like my institution to participate more actively in the program, and since it appeared to mean four hours of work in a place I was going anyway, in exchange for a night in a hotel and a fuel reimbursement — fair enough, if … More Federal Government
This is what I have to say on advice for protecting one’s career and not spending too much time on teaching, carajo. I love the atmosphere of a public R-1 and I wish I worked for one that had Ph.D programs in my precise interdisciplinary disciplines, but what I have to say to faculty at … More Public R-1 Faculty Alert
Last night when I got home after an intense discussion of the Trayvon Martin case in this Portuguese conversation group I lead, there were these Black guys working on their stalled truck in the small parking lot kitty corner across from my garage and driveway. After a while one of them came up to my … More Those Stand Your Ground Laws
I really don’t like interrogation. Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 