I like my work but not what I transfer onto it. The reason I wanted other work was so I could have work upon which I had transferred nothing. People believed one was destined for only one piece of work, the way they believe their spouses are their destined soul mates. I disagree with this … More Pain
I really like both of my projects and I really like research and writing. Really like them. I like them when I am not torturing myself about them or allowing myself to be tortured in the rest of life. I like them when I look at them, not at my directors and detractors. I am … More On Emerging
You have to put a lot of time into work, and you have to accept that it takes a lot of time. I have to reject the advice of that Emeritus Professor and several others, that one must work as superficially and as quickly as one can. That only translates to rushing, suffering, fatigue, and … More On Identity in Work and Play. On Pace. On Ignoring Mistreatment
This evening I went to a fancy movie theatre with a good, if small book store and a fancy café sharing its space. Suddenly I could tell I had been living too much in the slums because the upscale nature of everything was so unfamiliar. I was not quite sure I belonged at first. Lula, … More Lula, The Movie
In Reeducation we were to accentuate the negative. We were to find our faults and our weak spots. Admit, accept, confess, apologize, make amends, promise to improve, and on, and on. For me, though, that kind of negative approach makes improvement hard. History matters but fretting about it is pointless — although one of Reeducation’s … More Positively
Three reasons I am exhausted are: 1. The material situation, dealing with this house. 2. The psychological situation, dealing with the owner of the house and the caretaker. 3. The psychological situation, dealing with my “friend” who was going to pick me up from the airport. Since these situations began to wear upon me, my … More On Attitude
I have not gotten enough done these past two weeks, or enjoyed myself much, but I have learned something, perhaps, about vacation rentals; you really need guarantees and you must ask many apparently anally retentive questions because if not, you will lose. It is odd but the worst renter I ever had was someone I … More Caveat Emptor: On “Vacation” Houses
Now, thanks to Jennifer, I am honing in to where I want to be in terms of tone for this missive. Human has a point — that this person really is out of line — and so does my IRL friend here in Brazil, who said: –What is he trying to do, dominate you? and … More Honing In
All right, I must definitely not say anything to S, because the best way to communicate what I want to communicate is to say nothing. However I do like S and we have done all sorts of interesting things together at various points over the past twelve years. I am also vulnerable to being convinced … More Rehearsing a Speech
I want to TELL this person he is being kept at arm’s length. That is because I am sure that what he will do is plan to let this episode blow over, and then try to encroach upon me again at some weak moment. I want to head that off at the pass. How is … More New, Again
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