Enemistad

Politically, one of the things to which I most object to in the white grievance narrative that is cajunismo — and that interestingly, is deployed the most by older men and certain emotionally deprived teen-boys (and I will note that it is a masculinist narrative, you don’t hear women singing it) — is its appropriation … More Enemistad

On Deleuze/Guattari

“What is negative in ethics refers therefore less to a normative, moral injunction than to the effect of – moral and cognitive – paralysis and blockage that often comes as a result of a hurt, a shock, an act of violence, despair and disenchantment or just by intense tedium. Negative passions destroy the self’s capacity to act as they … More On Deleuze/Guattari

The one defeated

I have been saying things like this: Aspects of the adoration of Cajuns to which I object include the ubiquity of the fleur-de-lys and the nostalgia for empire, along with the desire to parlay that into becoming kings in a new, corporate empire. If you want credit for being a poor peasant and you’ve decided … More The one defeated

Managing

Long ago, in another coincé job, two friends had things to say. One: that every academic must have a secret life, some hobby nobody else from campus participates in, a fancy car nobody from campus rides in. Two: that I was stressed out from campus because I wasn’t hiding enough. At the time, I did … More Managing

And

Are the differences between Cajuns and other white Southerners actually so great? We know the atmosphere and vibration are different, and we can cite Catholicism, Tabasco sauce, French roots, accordions, and so on as specific signs of cajunisme. But in terms of the grievances they cite, don’t others have them? They lost their land and … More And

Also

I wondered for years what my chair meant when he would insist I was oppressing the instructors. They were licensed to harass me, but I wasn’t doing anything to them except support them academically in every way I could, as he had asked me to do. Still, I kept hearing that I was oppressing them, … More Also

December 24

It’s my birthday! For my birthday, I will try to act henceforth as though I loved myself. It’s a very good project. What would it feel like to refuse to engage in arguments with others over my being and my right to exist? What would it feel like if I were immune to claims that … More December 24

Et encore

I should stop tearing myself apart over this, I would like to be immune from it, but it feels as though I need to understand it so I can get it out of me. There is a fine line between thinking too much and thinking enough, I know. I don’t want to nurse resentment the … More Et encore