Are the differences between Cajuns and other white Southerners actually so great? We know the atmosphere and vibration are different, and we can cite Catholicism, Tabasco sauce, French roots, accordions, and so on as specific signs of cajunisme. But in terms of the grievances they cite, don’t others have them? They lost their land and … More And
I wondered for years what my chair meant when he would insist I was oppressing the instructors. They were licensed to harass me, but I wasn’t doing anything to them except support them academically in every way I could, as he had asked me to do. Still, I kept hearing that I was oppressing them, … More Also
It’s my birthday! For my birthday, I will try to act henceforth as though I loved myself. It’s a very good project. What would it feel like to refuse to engage in arguments with others over my being and my right to exist? What would it feel like if I were immune to claims that … More December 24
I should stop tearing myself apart over this, I would like to be immune from it, but it feels as though I need to understand it so I can get it out of me. There is a fine line between thinking too much and thinking enough, I know. I don’t want to nurse resentment the … More Et encore
Paul, Mary, Joshua, and the question of power David, vicissitudes of relationship to / identification with The extreme suppression of self that “analysis” required The way in which the dictum that one should “feel one’s feelings” became psychic and almost literal murder-suicide Note: if you are asked to re-experience the feeling of being in the … More One of the last psychoanalytic posts – notes
I think I am over Reeducation. At least very close. I like my name Coldhearted Scientist but wonder whether I should get a new one for this phase. Axé.
Recently, I’ve had some days where I felt well here, bringing summer relaxation from Europe and keeping the bubble around me. Not all days, and right now I am not doing well. Positive: part of the feeling of overwhelmedness has to do with having too many serious interests. That’s actually nice. (I know one is … More Comment vivre
