→It is the gaslighting and the undermining, even more than the lack of a research culture. My claustrophobia. I did not say this myself, but someone else said my problem was having to work at too low a level. (He said something much blunter than that, about having to work “seven categories” beneath my capability.) I … More Just to be sure I remember…
What is the origin of that line, where was it first heard (surely not in the 20th century)? Axé.
Look at these instructions on how to apply for jobs. I had a flash of insight: they are asking for more materials now because they are tired of weak applications. I have never applied for a job that asked for a research statement, but I always included clear discussion of research in my letter. Now … More A flash of insight
It might be that this is where I would have to live, if I get and take Job #1. It is extremely expensive but everything that looks reasonable in that town has hidden costs or if not, is entirely too depressing (as in, I would rather stay here and leave the profession than move there and live … More Housing, and budgeting, and negotiating
I must find that Julio Ortega book, and I must teach something by Ortega y Gasset in that class on raza. On Spain, we will read things by Branche, Goode, Piedra, and Ortega y Gasset. We will also study Vasconcelos and Aztlán: espíritu, raza, palabra. Meanwhile: Deborah Root’s 1988 review of Todorov’s La conquête de l’Amérique points … More Deborah Root and the concept of my book
And, if what I am applying for now does not work out, I will apply for other things like it and yet more baldfacedly, things like this. In the meantime I must: ♦ do taxes ♦ make a reservation in Houston ♦ retrieve my coat ♦ buy a bed frame for those guests ♦ buy … More Take Two
Today we announced to each other that the problem is the infantilization and the undermining: they will not recognize our expertise. Talking to them is nearly impossible since the people they think they are talking to, are not us, but some suspicious and conniving, deceptive characters who have in essence faked our advanced degrees. We … More The gaslighting, el resplandor
Bouder. It is said that they wake up boudés and they boudé all day until they begin to drink, and then they forget they ever was boudé until the next day, when they start again. Axé.
Being vulnerable to being preyed upon, that is what Dame Eleanor Hull diagnosed me with, and it is true. Most specifically I am preyed upon by a certain kind of individual with a certain type of protection, when I am in a place I appear not to be able to leave. That is when I … More Preying upon…
My worst work block is thinking I have to rush while working. I greatly dislike rushing, I like to do things calmly. So when I started to be told that as an academic, you had to always do everything as quickly as you possibly could and as superficially–or you would be cut–I decided I preferred … More It is true, I do not like to rush
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