I go into these crises of fear — “fear of extreme violence,” said a diagnostician — if I do not serve everyone perfectly, or if I thwart someone else’s wishes for the sake of my own survival. Many of those who have seen me in person do not imagine these things because I am so … More Et plus encore
Here is a comment I really support: “Part of being solid in a career is making those choices as to what you will and will not put up with. The thing that we all need to learn is to how to deal with it politically.” I like it because it goes against what I was … More Et plus tard
Axé.
It is a gorgeous fall day with squirrels. Mantra: “It is worse than useless to treat an external problem as an internal one.” I do not know why the current culture asks us to engage in so much self criticism (actually I do know why, or what the instrumental reason for it is; I say … More Posdata: quelques images
Why are we asked to question ourselves so much? For several days I have been wishing some accident would come and kill me. This morning as I woke up, I was thinking: “well, since I want to die as badly as I do, I had better come up with a method that will really work, … More “It is worse than useless to treat an external problem as an internal one”
This blog is about how despite sacrifice and penitence I am not as great a sacrificer or penitent as is required, and would like to become less of one and not more. Clarissa Dame Eleanor Hull Squadromatico I was expected to be a housewife and my marriage would have been abusive because that was what … More Popol Vuh
I came across a piece today, that I cannot now find, but which said that large classes are good for working class students because they have to be taught in lock-step, which works better for these students. Middle class students, on the other hand, are those who shine with liberal teaching methods. Do you think … More Working class students, authoritarian methods
Self-esteem: por los suelos. Pressure, of every kind: high. Fatigue: extreme. Immediate Reason: the language program. I am so tired from it, and so traumatized from the language teaching wars. The trauma would end if we had a program with goals and policies, and if it were coherent and feasible and we all actually followed … More Today’s weather
NO. DON’T. Look at other kinds of research, writing, and speaking jobs. I wanted to use the PhD to work for UNESCO but got swept up in other peoples’ dreams for me. Then I wanted to go into law and was told I was betraying other peoples’ dreams for themselves and me, and had no … More “Take a job, any job”
As we know, the emotional pain I suffer is largely due to the sometimes real, but also perceived imperative to be someone other than who I am, and moreover to enjoy that, in order to survive (or get paid). Not merely pretend to be someone else or pretend to enjoy it, but to actually transform … More Bateson
