…I would like to do some work this summer, then, on the flashbacks and the feelings of illegitimacy / guilt. How to do it — care of self, perhaps. You have to have a strong body and pleasure, and be good to yourself. I think I can focus / meditate and reimagine myself. I think … More So…
One should not stare too long into the abyss lest one become it, I know, but I am benefiting from the morose series of posts I am writing because they are helping me excavate the sources of the pain I am in, shine some light on it and ideally, dry it up and brush it … More Lake
One of my colleagues said yesterday, “You have so many talents, so many competencies for so much, it is really admirable.” * The more I think about it the more I realize how deep the guilt is that keeps me in place, growing quieter each year. Let us review my sins, as I feel them, … More On Leaving
On May Day my cat will complete his second month of absence. I was told when I adopted him that I should not let him outside because he could meet a terrible death. I let him outside, anyway, on the feeling that one should not incarcerate anyone. I regret that some days, since he may … More Kitlingen
Over 100 degree programs in this state will be cut in the coming year, says the newspaper. It is time to mail presents, work Jazzfest, decide where to take the LSAT, register, visit Death Row, and see a passion play at the Louisiana State Penitentiary at Angola. Clean house, clear out files, sell books, chop … More Word a tu rechingada madre
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I do not work very much in the fields I studied, so a lot of what I have done since I got my degree is acquire expertise in fields I did not have. I have very broad expertise now and a flexibility in upper division teaching that is nothing short of amazing, and I say … More On Training
I have very uneven “self esteem” or as I call it, confidence. In high school, I didn’t think the local dime store would hire me. By the end of college, I knew I could work in a dime store or a factory or as a substitute teacher. But I did not think I could be … More On Confidence
It does not go better than it does in some classes, some days, because I do not put enough into it, and when I say put enough into it, I do not necessarily mean time. I certainly do not mean I believe in using teaching as an excuse not to write. I am conflicted about … More On Teaching and Teaching Advice
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