If I accomplished something, it must have taken too much time. If I am planning something, I must be planning to take too much time. If I am doing something, I must be going too slowly.
I feel guilty about time, or fearful. But really, the key to everything is to give yourself enough time, not too little. That is not “procrastination,” although I was taught it was. This is very important.
But I feel I have finally discovered a good use of Boice today, as his advice is helping me organize mundane work.
This only shows, though, why I am uneasy about him as a writing guide — despite agreeing with a number of his practical suggestions. At bottom I feel he approaches writing as an unpleasant chore, that one can accomplish cheerfully. This is how I feel about some things, but not about that.
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Or. Is my whole issue just some strange adolescent rebellion trip, or some form of acting out against Reeducation, or to what *extent* could that be true?
And what would I be rebelling against? Warnings, carefulness, safety. Against achievement undertaken just to satisfy others. Against conventionality?
(I think I have to figure out what I am trying to accomplish in weak ways and find better ways to do it.)
That article in the New Yorker said that yes, procrastination is rebellion–against time.
I know. But I think that what I rebel against is … alcoholism?
Tell me not to teach well and to write fast, and I will hear that Emeritus Professor well into his cups and say … I will not grow up to be that man.
My problem with that is, I am not thrilled about “teaching” (I do love to discuss ideas with people) and I love research.