1. People keep saying one should not care about money and is vapid if one does, but I think they have what I would consider good academic salaries and benefits, and reasonable support for teaching and research. The amount of time and effort one spends figuring out how to function in the absence of these does not make one more virtuous or improve one’s work, I am sorry.
2. Say what they may about their reasons for it, the people opposing something offered, signed off on, funded, and feasible to give me a more rational work situation, have a long track record of doing the best they can to block my access to research resources and time, rational teaching schedules, and contact with grown-ups.
3. Overwork. I am overworked now and for no good reason. And a way out has been offered, and I have not been authorized to take it.
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I am so tired of all of this, tired of being pressed down and also dragged around in the dark, which is how all this strange manipulation feels. I want research time and I have long known where it goes: to the time and energy spent struggling for things like classroom space, to calculations about money (how much it will cost to drive to a research library, versus buy the book on credit, or receive it on interlibrary loan and apply for funding to photocopy), and to recovering from various forms of projection and infantilization.
These are my mantras for this week. You are not crazy (study the sections power, defectiveness?, and abusive vs. healthy in this website). You have power (with utter confidence, say a mild-mannered “no” to every manner of silliness, beaming complete belief in the person’s acceptance of your right to … I am not sure what: your life? space? being? personhood? I am not sure).
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
All right, I must remember this: academic advice given in the guise of help but perhaps simply replicating the imperative to obedience and abandonment of self, in a gesture of power-over. I will keep this in mind.