Category: Banes

Une des versions originelles et plus simples (de la méditation de cette semaine)

27/11/2014

I am easily understood if one understands the reactions of abuse victims. Otherwise everything seems complicated and circular and incomprehensible and exhausting. I fear doing anything on my own behalf because I fear the destruction that will be visited upon me if I do. Acting on my own behalf means flinging myself into an irrational … More Une des versions originelles et plus simples (de la méditation de cette semaine)

Flash!

23/11/2014

This, concisely, was the message of Reeducation: you must be a child. But that is not true. Axé.

Splitting

06/10/2014

So it is the splitting I experience. Last week’s exercise on shame (and the shame I feel comes from this) made it perfectly clear that the problem is splitting. I always have done it to some minor extent. Graduate school cured me of most of it, and Reeducation brought it back in a much more … More Splitting

On shame and defeat

02/10/2014

From the dirty old mess hall, you march to the brick wall Too weary to talk and too tired to sing And it’s all afternoon you remember your home town All inside the walls, the walls of Red Wing –B. Dylan Those are often my sentiments and the feeling of incarceration and longing for home … More On shame and defeat