So it is the splitting I experience. Last week’s exercise on shame (and the shame I feel comes from this) made it perfectly clear that the problem is splitting. I always have done it to some minor extent. Graduate school cured me of most of it, and Reeducation brought it back in a much more … More Splitting
Someone pointed this out to me once; I was surprised because I tend to think I do not put enough pressure. The academic advisors say we are lazy and inefficient as well; we should be jumping around. Tú te pones mucha presión. I think my mother did this as well. It may be why she … More “Tú te pones mucha presión”
Oh, mais oui, j’ai ces problèmes-là, justement. Axé.
That is practicing the guitar, according to Paco de Lucía, a great guitarist with a great phrase on the work that goes into producing beauty. In fascinating news of Flamenco artists there is this, too, on Camarón de la Isla: Axé.
From the dirty old mess hall, you march to the brick wall Too weary to talk and too tired to sing And it’s all afternoon you remember your home town All inside the walls, the walls of Red Wing –B. Dylan Those are often my sentiments and the feeling of incarceration and longing for home … More On shame and defeat
“The dualism that emerged in Cuban ideology–between liberal constructs of patria and radical formulations of nationality–is fully investigated as a source of both national tension and competing notions of liberty, equality, and justice.” This is interesting. Meanwhile, in addition to everything else, I must remember to read online homework. I am very busy and I … More Sur Cuba (et la nuit)
…but then again not; who else has the luxury to work out these problems? Today, besides teach and grade and go to meetings: communicate; find that paper; work on mine; print the course poster; send the course poster around; do one practical thing; go running; sleep. And create more course posters, and look at the … More C’est dur: anxiety and splitting, encore
The child would have reacted like this or something similar if enormous anxiety hadn’t paralyzed her. These children feel physically and morally helpless. There isn’t sufficient consolidation of their personalities in order to be able to protest, even if only in thought. The overwhelming authority of the adult makes them dumb and can rob them … More On some origins of self-hatred
12 things, none of them a real solution to anything. Mostly these are about letting myself be a “good enough teacher.” –Anonymous 1. Cancel a class. Ideally timed to a point in the term when students are cramming my office or when I know I’ll need to catch my breath. Very hard to give oneself … More C’est des tips volés
…decide what this paper, which feels alien, has to do with my book, which does not. Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 