For the next three days I will work on this project and remain rational in it, no matter who I talk to or how scary that is. I will put myself first — and putting this first IS putting myself first. For my present purposes anyone else’s irrationality is irrationality of my own that they … More Trois jours de santé
These people, too, wanted to get away from them, and so did I. One wants to see oneself unmarked, belong to oneself, inhabit oneself. I see where my unquiet comes from. Rushing about like a rabbit, looking for cover. If I arrange things such to have pleasant days with ego in them, then I can … More Scenes of crimes
Yo vi a Sabás, el negro sin veneno, pedir su pan de puerta en puerta. ¿Por qué, Sabás, la mano abierta? (Este Sabás es un negro bueno.) Aunque te den el pan, el pan es poco, y menos ese pan de puerta en puerta. ¿Por qué, Sabás, la mano abierta? (Este Sabás es un negro … More Sabás
I had not actually shopped, but came up with this: Red beans and rice with tasso Keta salmon sautéed in olive oil Purple and red potato salad vinaigrette with Creole mustard White potato salad in mayonnaise and yoghurt with celery and eggs Smothered cabbage Green beans Corn bread Lemonade from our trees That is a … More Le ménu
I am easily understood if one understands the reactions of abuse victims. Otherwise everything seems complicated and circular and incomprehensible and exhausting. I fear doing anything on my own behalf because I fear the destruction that will be visited upon me if I do. Acting on my own behalf means flinging myself into an irrational … More Une des versions originelles et plus simples (de la méditation de cette semaine)
Destruction came from the combination of: recriminations for being research oriented, multiple “boundary” violations, the internalization of these recriminations, the rage at the boundary violations which I turned against myself, and ultimately, the conversion of what had always been positive spaces into scenes of torture. That was the combination of elements. Condensing: boundary violations, authorities … More Encore une méditation
Axé.
I am looking for Hass’ poem on it. “Poetry proposes no solutions: it says justice is the well water of the city of Novgorod, black and sweet.” Axé.
This is someone I should study. I must examine his categorical rejection of “imitation,” particularly of European models — an articulation of 1840s US literary nationalism. His program for self-reliance is apparently obedience to higher law. “Plinlimmon’s snake oil,” someone said in reference to Emerson. Tell me about that. Plinlimmon is a character in Melville’s … More Ralph Waldo Emerson
This, concisely, was the message of Reeducation: you must be a child. But that is not true. Axé.
