My failure to take enough research time has me depleted and oppressed. I have to take this time for my own reasons, not out of duty (as it is said one must) or fear (as it is also said one must). I have been told so often that it is arrogant and egotistical to do research during business hours, or to put research over service, that I could cry.
I am sorry. I am sorry. I know I did this degree against all well intentioned advice. I am sorry.
Axé.
coldhearted scientist وداد 
Of this post, of course, the opposite is also true. I refuse to take enough time for research because, before I started getting outright threats at work in the opposite direction, I was exhorted so much (and so unnecessarily) about it. So it’s as though I were saying: OK, stop bugging me, I am going on strike (to the oldest voice) and also OK, I surrender (to the newer ones).
On strike — I actually think that’s sort of accurate. It’s a protest gesture. How to make a stronger, more serious protest, then becomes the question.