So, when I start to dissociate slightly, lose my ability to concentrate and tener muy presentes past manipulative situations, it means I am actually in one now and do not see it. Now I see what it is.
Should I quit this university level committee? It is important to stay on because ideally one could blunt the blow of some of the worst forces of corporatization.
But even the hope of forestalling such may be 20th century — if not 19th. If I am learning things from it, but it is also destructive, should I continue?