Something I really dislike that men do at work is go into hysterical fits about how the institution is dying and only I can help save it, beg me to help them with a major institution-saving project, convince me to commit to it 50%, and then forget about their 50% … and THEN act irritated … More Plus jamais
…that make me want to avoid it. Shame, which causes lethargy and withdrawal, which causes avoidance. Meanwhile, more interestingly: …trauma, anger, repression, self-recrimination, rebellion, claustrophobia, impatience, restlessness, desire to explore, desire to live, desire not to be entombed …I really need to unpack all of this. Axé.
I am so tired of having to psychoanalyze myself and also of finding that I keep coming to the same conclusions yet do not progress, or progress so slowly. In any case my insight, new for today is that a great part of my struggle here has to do with not having come here by my … More Insight du jour — once again
How to get them out. Axé.
I learned that the national domestic violence hotline is the best one, and the New Orleans family justice center is the best place. I learned about this book, Why does he do that, that is the most serious one I have seen. Most importantly, I learned about Creative Interventions. Axé.
I really should print and send that contract, in addition to other bureaucratic things. Axé.
1. I need some grounding techniques for when grief / pain / fear take over. One of the main ones is to remember I am a person and I have rights, and that I might not automatically be wrong or be guilty. 2. I take on entirely too much responsibility for everything, and really need … More What I learned today
Every day I will do: – One thing for Dad (for example, get in touch with HCU for documents, and LTC for confirmation and verification; do some shopping for him; call him). – One thing for research (for example, print out that contract and send it, but also, have a writing session). – One thing … More The summer rhythm
A friend of a friend writes: In patriarchal societies, women unbound are not trusted because insecure men fear that their offspring could be fathered by others and that created a societal need to subjugate and control women. Even in this day and age, for men and unevolved women, the worst and also most believed insult … More Sobre la honestidad en la mujer
I will construct a log of my interactions with one of my father’s insurance companies. It is amazing how much of my time has gone into this kind of thing this year. It is also amazing to realize that his heart event was over five months ago now. Axé.
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