The current firestorm is useful insofar as I now know whose so-called expertise not to trust. (Yes, one should always look at all policy documents, review them, seek the wisdom therein but that is something we can all do.)
I am told I am not competent enough, or trustworthy enough. I don’t sacrifice enough, take enough risks, or stand up enough for what’s right. These particular insults, to me, are salt in old wounds and that is why it is rough.
The truth, though, is the opposite. And I sacrifice too much, and give too much ground to others’ views. Who originally made these accusations to me, who carved those wounds? The things said were not true, little Z, and I will not let them be said to you again.