Today I wrote 302 words and discovered lacunae in my research — serious ones. Advice to new faculty is that it is never true that reading and writing, in that order, do not come first — no matter how many times they say that in your current context, this is not true.
I have too many interests and projects. The standard remedy is to prioritize but I have not yet seen how to do that effectively here. It would help if I would commit to myself. What I have decided is that I live here. What I mean by that is that always before, I considered I had been cast here — psychologically overpowered. Deciding I live here, in a lovely house, no less, is a major change and I like it. I have things I want to do and perhaps I will just do them, whether they close the department or not.