There is Amar en tiempos revueltos, and there is also Isabel la Católica. I would love to just watch all of these things on RTVE and withdraw from the world entirely. But it is a beautiful fall now, my favorite season outdoors. What is the next step: should I consider denial, magical thinking, evasion, avoidance, … More On television, and on the next step
I would like this book and I think I should get hold of it. (I wish we had books in our own library.) But it would be very amusing to read. Axé.
I always said the problem I had after Reeducation was loss of voice. And earlier on, it had apparently been difficult to get one. Someone once told me that all those sore throats I used to get as a child–it was my stress reaction–were a sign that I had something to say that I was … More La voix
Just when I thought I would never be able to work on this topic without being so engulfed in various aspects of panic and claustrophobia that I would always be forced two steps back for each one forward, the panic stopped. It used to be that I would be panicked already, and the panic would … More Très nouveau
I think much of my depression and disorientation came from giving up my research focus and rhythm. Research and writing give focus and order to the day and I had always had them. I gave up a great piece of myself — more than that, I renounced most of myself — and there was no … More Equinox
On the paralysis of guilt. Axé.
First: be good to myself and not panic. Next: the links on that page, the Raza cósmica bibliography, the course poster [WHICH CAN WAIT], the grading, and the application. There is of course this paper which must be dealt with [WHICH CANNOT WAIT]. But for the rest of this day, the grading and a walk … More What can I do for ME?
I am a late discoverer of Cuéntame como pasó and watching it, I realize I am Spanish. I, too, remember the things this program remembers, and feel interpellated by the “nosotros” in the theme song. The show speaks to everyone, and is light as it must be, for television. The episode here embedded is heavy, … More Cuéntame como pasó
– Not fret. – Touch real work. – Communicate about real work. – Remember that sleep is the most important thing. – There are some other things, but these are the essentials. (I must apply for that funding, and unearth that student’s paper, and look at my list.) Axé.
The term “soul murder” could fit. The feeling of having been killed. That is why I started this weblog as the weblog of someone speaking from beyond the grave.) It is hard to do academic work in field because the person who did that was killed. Or, as I said many years ago, went into … More Notes on “soul murder”
