On labor
07/03/2018
I will take this post and add to it, creating a co-authored piece for the Academe blog. Axé.
Author: Iansã
Meyer Abrams
06/03/2018
I’ve gotten rid of my Meyer Abrams books because they are just too tattered but The Mirror and the Lamp is very important to read if you work on modern poetry. I want to read it again in a clean copy one day, in a good library or a nice café, with the sun shining. … More Meyer Abrams
Further things I will do
05/03/2018
I will call the roofer. I will have a hauler take the old bookcase and futon away. I will work on the car. I will resist the acquisition of a different bookcase, even on the theory that it will help me organize books; I will proceed with book reduction. I will, however, acquire three more … More Further things I will do
La fragmentación
05/03/2018
Today I wrote 302 words and discovered lacunae in my research — serious ones. Advice to new faculty is that it is never true that reading and writing, in that order, do not come first — no matter how many times they say that in your current context, this is not true. I have too … More La fragmentación
On emotional pain
04/03/2018
This is a cheesy article in some ways but it has a list of types of emotional pain that are all results of internalization of mistreatment. Our whole department has these feelings and it is worth considering. We all need to realize that these feelings are imposed. How will I combat it? I will say … More On emotional pain
More things I will do
04/03/2018
I will find out whether I am still in LASA and ILLI. I will find out whether I can receive paper copies of my father’s insurance bill. I will do other things on my lists. I am changing my life. I do wish the university were not such a space of torture, and that I … More More things I will do
The thing at the back of my mind that I wish were a palm
27/02/2018
The other thing is that I just have so much pain and grief associated with this academic field that it is hard to function. People always said I must soldier on because it was what I had chosen — I had to bear my cross. Now they say they see it has not worked out … More The thing at the back of my mind that I wish were a palm
Longing
27/02/2018
It isn’t actually self-doubt or self-hatred, or laziness or lack of commitment or not knowing what one wants, or depression. It is longing. I long to: – live somewhere I feel happy – have an intellectually stimulating life – be safe from torturers, not work with torture – and therefore, be calm enough to really … More Longing
Mais
27/02/2018
I read about all these professors and how happy they are, how independent and financially secure and creative, and I think: I should be happy and productive, and it is only my lack of strength that prevents it They are happy in places even sadder than here; I should be too I am lazy and … More Mais
This week
26/02/2018
— Work on article every morning 7 days/1h no matter what; ideally come up with a readable and sharable draft — Put syllabi and exams in order — Letters of recommendation — Three bureaucratic tasks: study abroad and two speakers — Meet with painters — Things from old lists There is so much to do. … More This week
